They tried to make me go to rehab, but I said "no, no, NO!"

I'm so frustrated right now.  I went out tonight with a bunch of colleagues, and I had really good intentions.  Here's what I ate until 3:19pm:

• 1/2 cup 2% milkfat cottage cheese
• 1 T. craisins w/2 T. vanilla granola and 1 medium banana
• 2 pieces sliced chicken breast on whole wheat sandwich thins w/mustard
• 1 medium banana w/Dannon's light & fit berry yogurt
• 2 20 oz. glasses of water

After exercising for 55 minutes on my lunch break running for two minutes, speed walking for 8 minutes, elliptical for 20 minutes and weight training for 25 minutes, I was going to allow myself a slice of pizza for dinner.  But after I attended to a small emergency in the middle of my workday, BAM!  This is what I ate from 3:19pm on:

• 2 saltine crackers
• 7 pieces of Dove mini dark chocolates
• 2 pieces eggplant rollatini
• spinach sauteed in garlic and oil
• 2 garlic knots
• 1 piece of Italian bread with sauce and cheese
• 2 pieces Italian bread with 2 tsp. butter
• 1 large piece of tiramisu
• 4 dinner mints

What is wrong with me?  Altogether, it's around 3300 calories!

I'm convinced I am addicted to eating socially.  I can keep myself under control when it's me and my husband, but around 80% of the time when I'm with friends or family, and I'm eating at a restaurant, I go in with good intentions, but end up completely out of control.  Afterwards I'm left feeling uncomfortably full, out of control and regretful knowing that it's going to set me back several days of eating well pound wise.

I already gained a pound this weekend from eating poorly Saturday while I was in the city (from three meals of bad choices).  I really have to get back on track.

To motivate myself, I should really think of the good things, three of which happened today, ironically..  #1, someone else at work told me they noticed my weight loss, #2, I can now very comfortably fit into an XL sweatshirt (with room to spare) as opposed to a XXL, #3, I felt noticeably smaller to myself sitting in a movie theatre chair (I could place my arms within the constraints of my seat without resting my arms on the armrests.  These are all good things in my book.

So I vow, when I take my colleague to lunch tomorrow for her birthday I will stay within my calorie limits, when I go out drinking Wednesday night with friends and family, I will order french onion soup and/or two beers as long as I stay within my calorie limits, and Thursday I may not stay within the limits, but I will be reasonable.  Friday, Saturday, Sunday will be strict days until I get back on track.  From here on in, I will try to cheat only one day per week to keep my metabolism in check.

And if I survive my first step kickboxing class tomorrow, I will keep you updated.