I want all things bad for me.

I have the day off today, after going away and eating atrociously all weekend (let's be honest, week) long.  I started off bad yesterday morning, but by the end of the day I managed to only go over by 200 calories.  Considering my breakfast was 961 calories, I consider that a triumph.

Yesterday:

• Oat bran bagel with 3 tablespoons of whipped butter (crazy, I know)
• 1 silver dollar-sized pancake w/ 2 T. maple syrup
• 1 sausage patty
• 1 piece bacon
• 1 medium size orange
• 3 cups lettuce
• 1 cup cucumber
• 7 grape tomatoes
• 1/4 cup crumbled feta cheese
• 1 T. slivered almonds
• 4 T. fat free raspberry vinaigrette
• 2 T. low fat cool whip
• 2 servings sugar free Jell-O
• 1 chocolate Italian ice

Today, so far:

• 1 piece light whole wheat bread w/ 1/2 T. Nutella (love it)
• 1 medium orange
• 1/2 serving Tuna Macaroni Salad (elbow macaroni, tuna, green pepper, cucumber, cherry tomatoes, hard boiled egg, low fat mayo, celery salt and pepper)
• 1 medium orange

Tonight I'm dragging myself to the gym for a hard-core 2 hour workout to kickoff the week.  Tomorrow I have plans with a friend to go kickboxing, then Wednesday night, plans to go spinning.  I never did go spinning yet, we'll see how that goes.  I have another company potluck lunch on Wednesday, which is my horrible, admitted downfall.  I'm bringing dessert, which won't help the issue.  I'm hoping I keep things under control because with Easter this weekend, I'm not sure how my eating will be.  Anytime I'm around my family, I have a hard time.  I still sense hostility from them, that I've done as well as I'm doing. 

My goal is to really try to keep at this.  I went from 177.1 April 8 to 181.7 last night, down to 180.1 this morning, if that makes any sense at all.  I really need to lose this week, I'm too damn close to 60 lbs, which I'll reach when I hit 175.  My next mini-goal is 168.5.  HELP!!