S-U-C-C-E-S-S

I weighed in yesterday at 174.2 - 60.8lbs gone!  I still have so long to go, but I feel such a sweet victory so far.  I've been watching Addicted to Food on the OWN Network, a reality show where they feature people with all different eating disorders - bulimia, anorexia, compulsive eating disorder, etc. - in a treatment facility.  One of the activities they had the clients complete last episode was to burn their excuses for eating the way they do.  Here are some of mine I will proverbially burn via documenting in my blog:

• I deserve to overeat as means to reward myself
• I need to overeat as a means to socialize
• I'm meant to be fat - it's hereditary
• I'm too busy to exercise or cook every night
• It's a holiday
• I'm on vacation
• I love to cook
• I don't want to waste the food I'm given in a restaurant

Reasons I want to keep this weight off and continue down this road of losing:

• I feel better about myself & have more self-confidence
• I'm healthier and more fit
• I no longer have shortness of breathe
• I no longer have tingling in my feet
• I can shop in a regular sized store - NO MORE PLUS SIZE!
• I will be more marketable for jobs and/or promotions (terrible, but true)
• I have more energy
• I fit in a chair better
• I will be more comfortable on a plane
• I don't feel like the biggest person in the room
• I won't be scrutinized when I eat in public

Weirdest thing is that I'm fitting in some MEDIUMS already, which I didn't even see as foreseeable until I was around 150, so that's pretty good.  Chances are, I might be a small if I actually meet my goal weight of 130.  What I really want to start working on, especially as I lose more is having less of these "cheat" days where I eat enormous amounts of food.  Until I stop that, I will still be a compulsive over eater.

Take yesterday, for instance:

• 2 pieces light whole wheat bread toasted w/ 1 T. nuttella and 1 T. raspberry sugar free jam
• 2 pieces light whole wheat bread w/ 1 T. nuttella and 1 T. raspberry sugar free jam
• orange
• light and fit yogurt
• 1 piece of french bread toasted w/garlic, melted mozzarella dipped in marinara
• 3 bud light beers
• 1 chocolate raspberry martini
• 1 bikini martini (fruity)
• 1/2 serving vegetarian nachos
• 1 piece Italian bread dipped in infused oil
• Few spoonfuls of fusilli Alfredo
• Few spoonfuls of ice cream sundae
• 2 hours of gardening/raking (my butt and hands hurt this morning)
• 20 minute walk at 3.5 mph

Granted, I didn't eat everything that was in front of me - normally I finish my plate until there is nothing left.  I totally wasted a lot of food, which was good.  But the choices were not so great.  So that is my goal the next few weekends.

All in all, it was a good week!